This is who I am...

Have you ever found yourself questioning who you are?!... Well lately I have found myself asking this question over and over again. Don't get me wrong... yes I know I am Nadia Jane Phillips but I guess I am not sure what that really means. So really the question I have been asking myself is... what does it mean to be Nadia?
As I have talked about it my last blogs I have been making some changes, but now I am wondering what it is I am changing into? What is my goal?
Growing up, when I was frustrated or going through something really tough I always would think to myself... just hold on Nads when you get older things will fall into place a lot more easier because you and everyone else will be more mature. But oh how I was wrong! Life never gets easier... you are never 100% sure of yourself and your life.
I feel that people seem to not grasp that I am not the same person as I was years ago. Maybe it was just me, but I seem to take the hard road when it came to self discovery. Yes I made my share of mistakes, yes I did some dumb things, and yes I lost some really great people on the way. But what people don't seem to see is that I always got back up and did my best. I never gave up. So I have decided this is a part of who Nadia is, I am not a quitter!
I have never been one to understand "cliques" and stomping on others to get to the top. I was never good at that sort of thing. As a teenager it frustrated me how people could play such drama games to gain popularity. It always just made sense in my head to be nice to everyone. A friend is a friend... you can never have too many! So I have decided I am a non social political person... and I kinda like that!
How many times have you looked at your facebook page and saw... I miss you, lets hang out!... messages from people you know you'll never see or know much at all? Or when it's your birthday and you look on facebook to see how many people wished you a happy birthday that you know you haven't heard from since you were kids? hahaha. Yes I am talking about those "friends"... the ones you can count on being fake 100% of the time. The ones who tell you, you look AWESOME when you know you both know that you look like crap! I just don't get those kinds of people. In fact those kinds of people really infuriate me to no end! Sometimes I feel more insulted then complemented by those kinds of remarks from such people. I believe in honesty... it really is your best policy. So needless to say I have decided that I am proud to know that I sincerely love my friends. When I say you look awesome it is because that is what I think. And when I say I want to get together I mean, lets check our calendars and set a date! So Nadia is good at not being fake. I'm not 100% perfect at this but then again show me someone who is! hahaha
Music is always something that reaches out to me. No I am not a great singer... but dancing is my all time favourite thing to do! And when I can't dance I love to sit back and listen to music. Lyrics are what I look for in a song to make it a classic. I love it when I find a song that I can connect with and understand in my own life. So to be Nadia means to live in a world with music! Pictures are also important to me. I feel they are journals in themselves. I could look at pictures all day and have the best time recounting memories. I love that I can look back and say... yes I did that!
Like most people I have had hard times in my life when it came to friends and losing friends. It is so rough when you learn someone isn't who they say they are or lets you down or just walks away. Sometimes I find myself thinking about those past friends and feeling depressed over what happened and wondering if I had only done something different would they still be there. Have you ever been there? I sadly have been there far too many times. It was when I was talking to my husband he had me realize that I have so much to be grateful for when it comes to friends now. Are any of you so lucky as to have a friend in your life you can tell ANYTHING too? A friend who can relate to your stupid moments or your embarrassing moments? A friend who you know will always have your back no matter what?! I am happy to say I really do have friends like this in my life now. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have these lovely ladies in my life. I don't know if they even realize the impact they have on me... but they are people I aspire to be more like every day. These girls help make me who I am. I am loyal to them till the end! They are willing to do anything for me and I know I am willing to do anything for them. Yes I have had to say goodbye to some friends along the way... but at the end of the day the besties I have now are priceless! In fact I love knowing that they need me in their lives too. So to be Nadia means to be loyal. I am there no matter what!!!
When I was a child I was diagnosed with ADD. Yes that is right I am ADD. At the time I was in grade 4 and no one knew much about it and thought... oh ADD means hyper and annoying. So I was titled from a young age as such and it destroyed me and I felt labeled by it for most of my life. But as I have gotten older I have realized it does not determine my life. I have learned that being ADD does not mean you are hyper (don't get me wrong I can get hyper like everyone else) it just means you learn differently and by no means does it label me as stupid. I have learned that it has made me more creative and out going. I am proud to say I am not a dull person. hahaha. How many people do you know who can hold a more topic-full and random conversation better than me?! hahaha that's right! I'm only sad that I wasn't able to see this when I was younger. Being ADD is a part of who Nadia is... and I LOVE it!
So these are some of the things I have come up with when I took the time to sit down and ask myself... what does it mean to be Nadia. I know it is a non stop mission but it does feel good to know every once in a while where I am at.
To be Nadia means to never quit, to never be political with people, to be real, to be musical, to be loyal and to be ADD! I'm thinking so far so good! If you can't learn to love yourself who can you love, right?!
So there you have it.
PEACE!

Time for a CHANGE!!!

So i'm one of those people who once in a while feels the urgent need to change the physical side of me. It can be a clothes change, make-up style change, hair cut change or a hair colour change. Sometimes there are moments where I have the urge to change all of the above at once! This is one of those times in my life!
People who knew me in junior high knew me as a tom-boy. People who knew me in high school knew me as some what of a skater girl who hated pink and never would admit she wanted to try out the whole make-up thing. After high school I changed a lot... I embraced make-up and the colour pink. Anyways you get what I mean... I change a lot.
I still remember the exact day and place in my life when I made the big plunge from light brown hair to extreme dark hair.
As I think about all these "changes" I realize that they have all come at pivotal moments in my life... When I emotionally came to a turning point. I recognize now that how I dress and express my physical self is a shadow of emotional change.
(I am sure I am not the only person out there like this)
When I feel like a new chapter in my life is over and new one is about to begin I have to do it with a big "bang" so to speak. It's almost like a new found confidence to take on this new step in my life... and is symbolic of shedding the past.
I have grown a lot, especially in the past 5 years. I experienced so much... some good... some really bad. But I am here today... forever growing and changing.
Some people choose to continue judging me from different points in my life... and I wont lie it really hurts and can if I let it, hold me back.
These last few years of my life have been really intense. So much change has occurred. I got married, moved to Dallas and soon after was pregnant. It was a lot to take in a year. I would love to say I took it all with perfect grace... but I would be a liar. I'm not saying I hated everything... but there were a lot of hard things I went through. But that is life... how can we expect to grow without experiencing things outside our comfort zone, right?!
I wont lie, pregnancy was really hard on me. It took a huge toll on me in so many ways. Yes I was happy to be having a healthy child... don't believe otherwise while reading this.
When I pictured being pregnant I pictured being the worlds cutest preggo out there! Cute overalls and a cute baby bump. I have never in my life dealt with weight issues... so when the stress of pregnancy took me from 120- 210 lbs I didn't know how to handle it. I know how selfish it seems, me here talking in such a vain way... but I am being honest. Through out my pregnancy I was sick and emotional. I had loads of other pregnant girls I knew who "seemed" to be having the picture perfect pregnancy. No weight gain in areas except for their adorable baby bump. This is at least what it felt like to me.
When I had Vienna it was THE experience of my life! I have never felt more love and joy when I got to see her beautiful lil face.
But when it came to myself esteem regarding personal self image I was drowning. I was SO sick of people telling me the weight would just come off... that I was a beautiful mom... that I should be grateful for a healthy child (because I was and my love for her in no way was related to these selfish feelings). I knew I was being petty and vain but that didn't mean it didn't make it any less hard knowing this.
Well it has been a year and yes I have lost some off the weight... but I have so much to go. My physical body shape is forever different but that comes with being a mom I am told.
I hated hearing other moms complain about the few extra lbs they couldn't get off when you couldn't even tell they still had any more weight to lose. I felt like every other mom out there pretty much bounced back. I had always heard people complain about permanent weight gain due to having kids... but when I was going through it I was like "where are these moms now?". I was jealous of all their cute family pictures. I am terrified of being in pictures since the weight gain... and even more terrified to have them posted up for the world to see.
Luckily I have the most supportive husband. He truly is my best friend! I felt so bad for him cause he me married the cutest skinny mini and 4 months after that she got ugly. No he doesn't make me feel this way... but I feel like he would be justified in feeling it if he did. Instead he encourages me and is proud of the progress I am making and I couldn't ask for more!
So despite my best efforts It has been over a year and I am not where I hoped to be physically. But last week I realized something... screw everyone! I wanted to lose this weight for the very wrong reasons. I wanted to not be judged... and that isn't fair. That is way to stressful to keep on my shoulders. I shouldn't want to be skinny mini so the people from high school or the people from my singles scene wouldn't talk behind my back. I shouldn't want to be skinny mini so people will think I have the perfect life. I should want to lose weight because it is something I want to do for myself and if for anyone else... my husband.
So like usual... after realizing having gone through a huge life trial, I wanted to shed it... the old me and start again fresh... so I dyed my hair! I got rid of the black sexy "I'm independent so screw you" hair and opted for a softer "Life is to be enjoyed" brown with all sorts of blonde foils on top. It took 5, almost 6 long hours but when it was done it felt like a million bucks! I could feel that yucky weight of stress I had been carrying lift a bit off of me. But the change is not yet complete. I am cutting it as well... I have no idea what I will do with that... but it's coming next! I also went shopping and got clothes that I felt made me feel good about myself. It was awesome! No I am not the size I wish to be... but whatever... that will come... and if it isn't the size I use to be... so be it.
So that is me putting who I am out there. It may seem weird or awkward for some people... but I feel I needed to have this admitted out in the open. I'm like that. Until I can say it out loud... it doesn't seem real.
So judge me how you want. I love my family, I love my daughter, and I'm on my way to loving the person who I am inside and out!
When they say it takes way too much effort and time to care what other people think... they are so right! But it is SO much easier to say then actually do. I do care what people think... but I am trying hard to not let that determine how I feel about myself.
So there you go... here's to a new chapter!

three years ago...

Yesterday...

Tiffany & Co

Today was a VERY great day for me!
Since I was 16 years old I have been in love with the Tiffany & Co charm necklace... and today Jarom spoiled me and got it for me!!! I can't express my love and giddiness for this necklace!

We went this past friday to Tiffany's to look at it... but the store was closed! My heart broke! I have been dreaming of that moment for YEARS! As stupid as it may sound... when I saw that the doors were closed and locked I wanted to cry. I had been dying all week to go!
I don't own much real jewelry... I have loads of costume jewelry but I have never really had a desire for one piece in particular... except for this one.
So when we went in to Tiffany & Co today my heart was racing. It was so much fun asking to see it and then telling the man that I would like to purchase it!!! I tried not to be stupid and giddy cause it was such a fancy store but my face prob showed it all! hahaha. Jarom thought is was so cute.
So I am now at home rockin my new necklace and couldn't be more happy about life! This is my early 25th birthday present from Jarom. He was going to hold on to it and wait till my birthday... but lets be honest, how calm can anyone be knowing that THAT necklace is in the house and not on their neck?!
Today was a very special day for me. To so many people it is just a necklace... but for me it is special!
Tiffany & Co... oh how I love thee!

My Family is FOREVER!

I have been thinking a lot about families lately... like a lot.
Sometimes I have moments where I realize how truly blessed I am to know that my family is forever. Today is one of those days.
I don't know what I would do without Jarom. It just amazes me how much he does for our lil family. He works so hard to make sure we are safe and are well provided for. I don't think I could have fallen in love with a better man than him.
This summer we are yet again doing sales. Like the past two summers we have moved away from our families in Canada and have come to Dallas. It's hard to leave our loved ones behind for the best 4 months of the year but Jarom's talent for sales makes it possible for me to stay home all year with our lil girl and Jarom thinks that is the best reason to do what he does.
We just celebrated Vienna's birthday this past week and it was so awesome to see Jarom so excited to be with his little girl. Those two are the best of friends and gush over each other whenever they are together. As a mom I couldn't ask for them to have a better relationship. Her daddy is her hero and I can't express how much that means to me.
Life can get so hard sometimes... and it is so easy to lose sight of things. But to know I have my very best friend by my side makes it a lot less scarier.
Marrying Jarom was the best decision I have ever made. And us having Vienna was the best thing we ever did. No one can prepare you for the blessings and over whelming emotions being a mother brings. I will never forget the moment Jarom and I finally got to meet Vienna. It was by far the most spiritual experience I have ever had. I never knew I could feel that way for another human being. Don't get me wrong, I love Jarom with everything that I have... but this is a different kind of love.
Sometimes I find my past creeping up on me... sometimes people so kindly judge me for the past... but luckily I have a husband who reminds me how far I have come and encourages me to never look back but instead takes my hand and walks forward. I don't know where I would be without my faith. Faith is everything.
I love my family. I love them so much. Today is one of those days where I take a few moments and am so very grateful for what I have. I have a marriage that will last forever and I have a daughter who makes each and every day better than the last.
Families can be forever... and mine is.

I miss my Bestie...

So it is like 2am (dallas time) and my bestfriend Kandace just put up her graduation pictures from today... and I am soooo home sick. I guess I'm more like, bestfriend sick. I miss her so much!
Today she graduated from university and I wasn't able to be there to enjoy the special moments with her. I hate that! Kandace is one of the most amazing girls that I know. We have been through so much together and have come so far together as well. I feel so blessed to have a friend like her in my life. When ever I think about her I have to laugh. I have boxes back at home FULL of random pictures we have taken over the years. Even though most of them are just face shots... I can tell you exactly where we were and what was going on in each one of them. Hahaha. She has got to be the funnest person to road trip with as well! Good times indeed!

Doesn't she look so pretty and happy?!
I miss her so much right now! This is the 4th summer I have spent away from her... which means it is the 4th birthday I will have to celebrate without her. Sucky!
I am so lucky to have a best friend like Kandace. I really am. Summers are not the same without her. Lately I have been in conversations with other women about best friends and I have come to realize how having friends like Kandace are really rare. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have her.
I love that we have each others backs. I love that no matter what, she is always in my corner if I need her... and is always down for a good dance party! hahaha
She looked so awesome in her grad pictures today... and I could tell that it was such a fun day! I know she worked so hard to get to where she is today and I'm so proud of her! She did it!!!
Anyways... I miss you Kandace! I'm glad you are my bestie.
CONGRATULATIONS!!! You are going to be the BEST social worker out there! I know there are people who need you and will need to have such an amazing person like yourself in their lives! I know I do!
Kandace you are the bestest bestie a girl could ever ask for! I'm sooooooooo sooooooo sorry I wasn't able to make it to your big day. I can't wait to hear about it all!!!!
Ok... that's all. Good night!

Summer so far... and a lil shout out to Kandace!

Well first off... here is a shout out to my bestie KANDACE!!! Today she is graduating from University and I am soooo SO proud of her! I am really sad I couldn't be there for her big day. She worked so hard and deserves to enjoy this moment! I love you Kandace and I am so proud of you today!!! You did it... you GRADUATED!!!

What a busy summer we are having down here in Dallas Texas... so very very busy!
Jarom is continuing to sell tons and tons each day and we could not be more proud of him! He is such a good provider!
Vienna and I keep ourselves busy with... pool time, friends, walks, dancing, reading, games... and all sorts of fun things. I'm so grateful to have her as my baby bestie!
The last few weeks have been busy... but good... mostly. For memorial day weekend we had fun at bbq's a pool parties. Sadly though, Vienna got heat exhaustion and we spent a few days inside and taking lots of naps. But she is back to her fun self and life is all good again.
This past weekend was Kevin and Jaime Monson's wedding and reception. They make the cutest couple and we are so happy for them! Last thursday morning Jarom and Coby took Kevin and some other boys paint balling for Kevin's Bachelor party... I wish I had pics to post of it... but sadly I don't. But I have seen some and it looks like they had a lot of fun!

Also on friday it was Phil's 25th birthday so we thought we should do something special for him. I made him his favourite German Chocolate cupcakes with coconut pecan icing. We threw him a lil pool party at Coby and Typh's and had some pizza. The boys had fun playing night water basketball and of course Jarom and Phil had to have one NHL 2010 hockey terny on the x-box. For Phil's b-day present Jarom took him to 7 flags the next night. They had loads of fun together and I know it was nice for them to just be goofy and silly together. They are not just cousins, they are best friends too, which is great.
Today I successfully put pigtails in Vienna's hair and it looks soooo cute! I'll have to post some pics of it later on. We also bought her a walker toy... which she is obsessed with! It is so funny watching her walk around our house with it. She is getting some speed too! She makes me laugh!
Well I better run... Vienna should be up for her nap now and it is time to go for a walk.
I would be lying to say I am not extremely blessed. I love my life... although at times it is trying... I am very blessed to have the husband that I love more than anything on this earth and a daughter who I could not love more each and every day!
Well until next time...

Today is the day our lil Vienna turns 11 months old!

It's that time of month again... no not that time of month hahaha... the time of the month where my daughter gains another month. I can't believe my Vienna is 11 months old today. She is growing up so fast!
This past month it has really hit me that she is no longer a baby. She is becoming more and more independent. I love watching her learn new things. This month we have realized that Vienna has taken a huge liking to drawing. She will sit on the floor with crayons and draw on a piece of paper for the longest time. She has found the most comfortable way to hold the crayon and loves to draw in swirls instead of dashes. I'm so proud of her. I guess she picked up the artistic gene from my family. I wish I could say from me... but I'm not what you would call artistic. But I am very excited that Vienna is.
As we introduce new foods to her, she is easy to please. I have not found a food yet that she has not eaten and loved. I'm sooooo happy that she is not a picky food eater. She also enjoys spicy food. I make sure that it is not too spicy (I don't want to destroy her taste buds so young haha) but she does enjoy a bit of spice.
She also LOVES our trips to the pool in our gated community. Jarom and I bought her a floaty toy that she can sit in and put around the pool in. She loves it!!! But now she is bored of it... she now enjoys laying on her tummy with my hand holding her up while she kicks and splashes around. It is sooo cute!
Vienna is enjoying the heat here in Dallas for sure... mostly because it allows us more outdoor time! We go for walks... play on our patio... go to the dog park to play with the dogs... trips to get ice cream... daily trips to the pool and to the beach volleyball court (we play in the sand!). We have sooooo much fun together!
Another part of our day that we enjoy together is when Daddy comes home!!! Because Jarom is gone from 12-10:30 everyday we have changed her schedule so she is up when Jarom comes home. That allows her more time with dad. Plus it helps when Vienna isn't cranky about sleep. I just changed her nap times so it allows her to be awake for about 40 min after Jarom comes home. It is sooo worth it cause when she hears his key in the door she starts giggling and clapping and freaking out! I love it! It is so fun to watch those two together. You can tell they have such a special relationship together. It is such an awesome feeling to know they are so close.
We have some what started a play date group with a few ladies and their kids down here and it is so fun! Vienna LOVES playing with other kids... and she loves watching them and trying to mimic what they do. She is quite the learner!
We are also getting more progress with teaching her the features on her face. She loves showing people where their nose, eyes and ears are.
I can't believe Vienna is turning one next month. It just blows my mind that she has already been with us for a whole year. I have decided to make her a mini mouse birthday party. It should be sooooo fun!!! One of the plus's to living down here in the states is that it is so easy and cheap to find theme things for parties. I already have so much to work with. It should be sooo much fun!
So here is a shout out to our little princess Vienna...
HAPPY 11 MONTHS VIENNA!!! We love you sooooooooooo much!!!

I got a Wii!

Wow I feel so spoiled today! We went to Costco before Jarom had to leave for work and they had Wii's for real cheap... so I jokingly picked one up and put it in our cart. I have to admit I was shocked when Jarom ended up leaving it in the cart and buying it for me! I didn't have to beg... I didn't have to argue... he just bought it for me! I'm pretty stoked! I have wanted one for a while. It's black and it came with Wii sport and Wii resort! I just need to get Mario Kart and I'm pretty much the happiest girl out there!
What a nice gift eh!
Also Jarom decided we need to make the plung and buy a bigger tv for down here in Dallas. We have a big screen back at home... but it is pretty annoying trying to watch movies and stuff with our lil tv we have here. We would also like to have people come over to watch movies and stuff... and lets be honest, Jarom just wants a bigger tv. So Jarom is getting one. Wow how spoiled are we today... a new Wii for me and a new tv for Jarom! Life is good!
Ok that's it... I just wanted to brag a lil bit. Today has been a good day!

Dallas... the lone star state...

I'm here!!! We made it to Dallas! Well we did about a week ago.
It feels AWESOME to be here again. I didn't realize how much I missed it until I got here. All the craziness is over... the move, the goodbyes, the packing... DONE! I can relax and enjoy the summer with my family.

Before we came down Vienna and I stayed an extra 10 days to make our rounds to the family and say our goodbyes. We drove up to Fort McMurray to see my sisters and their families for a week. It would have been such an awesome week if Vienna didn't get so sick during the whole trip. There even was a few hospital visits during the week and an IV for her. It was so sad to see her so sick in the hospital with this huge needle in her hand. But I am also very grateful for modern medicine. I don't know what I would do if we couldn't take her in. I am glad to report she is BETTER! It was so sad to see her suffer. Vienna is such a people person and during that whole week she didn't want anyone but mom. It broke my heart to see her so uncomfortable. It is so good to have my happy and playful baby back!


It was awesome to see my big sisters... Vienna being sick put aside. I really have missed them so much! I hate them being so far away from me. I wish we were all closer so they could see V grow up. I miss my nephews and nieces a lot too. I can't believe how grown up they all are.
This month I have two of my nephews hitting land mark ages... one is turing 18 and the other turned 21 yesterday. That is right I have old nephews! I love them so much! It was awesome being able to visit and be silly with them. Growing up they were more like siblings than newphews... since we were all so close in age pretty much. It was fun to remember the old days and to share laughs.
But now I am in Dallas! I am here... and I am so in love with the heat and the sunshine! It was weird... I left from Calgary last tuesday morning and it was a cool and crisp spring morning... and when I got off the plane it was hot and humid... instant summer. It was weird how in a few hours so much changed!
We were able to take Vienna to the Fort Worth zoo the other day and it was the perfect day! The zoo was so amazing! You actually got to see all the animals... and up close. Usually in calgary you hit and miss... some animals are out and some are hiding in their houses. But at this zoo you saw them all really well. We weren't sure if Vienna would really get a kick out of being there since she is so young by she LOVED it! She did a whole lot of pointing and "ohhhhhhhhhhh'ing" hahahaha. She is so cute! We had so much fun! We went with Typh and Coby Cahoon and their two adorable boys! Oh how I love those guys! It was so cute, Nash (he is 3) would sit beside her in the double stroller and let her lean on him and he would hold her hand. So cute! Those boys are so good to her. They love having her around and love helping me. I wouldn't be shocked if she gets a lil crush on one of them some day. hahaha.

We also took her to the Cahoon's house to go swimming in their pool. She LOVED that too. They have this toy that she can sit in and covers her from the sun. She sat in it and kicked her way around the pool. It was soooo funny to see her skoot herself around. We were all so impressed with how much she loved this toy and being in the pool. This is so awesome because We have two pools in our gated community that I want to take her to during the day and I'm so glad to know she isn't scared of water and loves to play in it. That makes life easier indeed.
Jarom is doing so well at sales. He already has more sales halfway through May than he did all of may last year. So he is kicking trash and I am so proud of him! It was about 38 degrees celcious yesterday and it is may... I don't know how he handles knocking in this kind of heat. He amazes me. I'm so proud of him and I appreciate all his hard work.
It is sooooo cute to see how excited Vienna gets when he comes home at night. He usually sneaks in to our room where I am usually playing with her and he calls her name. She straightens up and the BIGGEST smile spreads across her face. She freaks out when her daddy comes home and I love it. I love watching the two of them play. They are so cute! I also love knowing that my little girl LOVES her daddy so much and has the best relationship with him. Jarom is such an amazing dad. I think that quality makes me loves him more and more each and every day.
Today is also my mommy's birthday! I'm sad that I have to miss it... so here is a lil shout out for my mom! I LOVE YOU CHERYL FRANCESCHI!!! I HOPE YOU HAVE SUCH AN AWESOME BIRTHDAY!!!
Thank goodness for Skype! It really helps us keep in contact with everyone... and it's free so really, what's not to love?!
I guess I should end this. Vienna is pretty much done her nap so I think I'll take her to the pool for a swim.
I am loving life here in Dallas... it is good to be home again!
Till next time...

I can't believe Vienna is 10 months old today!

Where did the time go?! My baby girl is 10 months old today and I am in shock!
It just amazes me to see how fast she is growing and learning. She is so determined to figure out the world around her. I love it! But at the same time kinda sad... I packed up her little itty bitty clothes the other day and put them into storage and I couldn't believe she was already too big for them. Wow!
Today has mixed emotions for me... Jarom also left for Dallas. He is driving down so he can have our car there for work. I was sad to see him off but at the same time I know I will be seeing him on May 11th when Vienna and I fly down. So for the time being we are going to enjoy us some family time!!!
I'm staying here in Cardston with my inlaws so we can get in some Grandma and Papa time before the move. Vienna just LOVES them so much! She is really really going to miss them! She just lights up at the sight or sound of them. It is really quite cute. I am so glad that she has such a strong relationship with them.
On saturday we head for Calgary! We are going to go to a baby blessing on sunday and will be able to spend some time with Jarom's side of the family. It should be really really fun! Then on monday my mommy and I are driving to Fort McMurray to see my sisters and their families!!!!! I am sooooooooooooooo excited! I miss my sisters so much! They have only been able to see Vienna a few times so I am excited to be able to spend a week with them! I'm sad I will be missing my two nephews b-days this month. They are big land marks indeed! Kerry is 21 and Armancio is 18! Like when did that happen?! How did they grow up so fast as well?! Anyways, I couldn't be more happy to go see them all!
Once we get back we will be spending the last day or so with Jarom's big sister Melissa and her hubs Donny! Vienna spent last weekend with them while we were gone celebrating our anni and she had the best time! They took her to see Donny dirk bike race and they spoiled her rotten! They are so good to her.
I must say I feel so blessed. Vienna is a well loved baby and nothing makes a mom more happy than to know her baby is so well loved!
So this past weekend was our 2nd anni! Wow! 2 years already! Is it me or is time going by soooo fast in all aspects of life?! Looking back so much has happened in those two years. We moved to Dallas twice... and had a baby... who is 10 months old!!! Life has been very good to us! This year we decided to celebrate our anni by going to Banff! It was a good decision. It was snowy out but it was perfect hoody weather. We walked around banff looking at all the fun shops... got some snacks at the amazing Candy shop! We went for a nice dinner at the Keg and went and saw a movie. It was just such a relaxed two days and we really needed that! It was so nice to have Jarom all to myself and be able to just be together doing whatever we wanted! Jarom had never been to Banff so it was fun to show him around. He is excited to go back in the fall and check out some of those trails.
So all in all life is good. The moving and cleaning part is pretty much done so that is good... now it's just time to enjoy some family time before we move down to Dallas.
Now that the time is coming closer I am really quite excited to get down there and see some of my fave people I have dearly missed!
Oh another bit of awesome news!!! My best friend Kandace finished her very last exam and paper of university! She is graduating!!! I am sooooooo proud of her! A lil jealous... not gonna lie... but so proud of her! She worked so hard! Way to go Kandace!!!! Now we are planning a way cool grad photo shoot for her since I wont be there for her very big day. It should be pretty sweet! hahahaha.
Well I better go... Vienna is going to be up from her nap soon.
Till next time!!!

The MOVE!

So as I have stated before... we are moving! Where to you ask... Dallas Texas! For how long?... 4 months.
This is our third summer doing this... so you would think that it wouldn't really phase us... but... it does!
I hate moving! I hate it, I hate it, I hate it! I hate not feeling secure in one area. I hate not really having a place to call home. I hate packing and unpacking ever few months. It gets really stressful. It's also hard saying good bye to family and friends for the summer. Wait maybe I should clarify some things... I don't hate that we are moving to Dallas... it's just the actual "moving" process I loath. I hate the transition between going from one place to the other! Ok now that I have that stated...
Don't get me wrong, there are definate benefits to summer sales. Jarom is really really good at it... and makes good money! The money we make each summer allows me to stay at home with Vienna and for both Jaorm and I not having to work as he goes to school. So yes... I see the need for it and do feel blessed. I am in no way trying to cry "woe is me" cause he can sell. It's just the "moving" part I really hate!
Anyways, today we finished packing up the whole house, loading the trucks and getting our stuff into storage. Now we just have to go back on monday and clean up. It sure feels good to have everything all packed up. You would think that after doing it so many times we would be fast pros... but we aren't. hahaha. I'm just glad that part of the move is over!
When ever it comes time to pack up again I feel like I am at a stand still... I don't know where to start. I get over whelmed... usually procrastinate for the most part... and then end up busting my butt until the wee hours on the last day! You think I would learn!
The other night I was able to go out for dinner with my two best friends and we started talking about moving. We each counted the number of times we have moved in the past 4 years and I came up with 13 moves! What the heck?!
Besides all the packing, organizing, cleaning and late nights... saying goodbye to family is really rough. Especially now that we have Vienna this part of the move is really quite sad. It's just hard. I know it is rough but we are lucky Jarom has such a great talent. I just wish people could see that and understand that we are trying to d what is best for our little family. And after such hectic constant travelling during the winter it's nice just to be the three of us. Sometimes I feel like I don't get Jarom to myself... or that we don't get to be alone to do our own thing, to figure out how we want to raise our new little family. I recognize that everyone is just wanting to help us out and bless their hearts, I love them to death!... but I can be stubborn and want to figure things out for myself.
Right now I am at a crossroads with emotions. (yes I can be a very emotional person). On one hand I am so sad to leave our families and friends... but on the other hand I am really excited to go back to Dallas to where I have made some really dear friends. It's really weird. I'm so lucky to have the friends that I do down in Dallas. Luckily I adore the bosses wife and her kids and some other awesome ladies involved in the company. They know what a summer sales life can be like and we can all support one another. I can't wait to see them soon!
I can see how some people view moving as a fresh start... a new adventure... but ya... we have been down this road too many times. hahaha. I can't wait for the day to come when we buy a house! How awesome will that day be hey! I'm not sure how many more years we plan on doing summer sales for... but to think that someday we will have a house that we will permenantly live in... wow... what a day that will be!
Anyways... look at me ramble on. hahaha. I can't believe it's already that time of year again. I'm just glad that the packing part is over! Celebrate your victories as they come!
I guess I should get my butt to bed. It's pretty late and I need to unpack my car and get organized so we can go to Calgary. Jarom and I have decided to go to Calgary and banff for our 2nd year anni this weekend. It should be fun!
I'm so grateful that this day is done. I am not sad that it had to end. hahaha.
Now we just need to pack our car for Dallas... oh fun... but that isn't till next week so I am going to not let it bug me just yet!
Wish me luck as I transition through the "moving" process. I'm going to need it!
Loves until next time!

Ok, so a little about me...

Ok so I'm up late... once again. I'm always up late... what can I say I am a night owl! Anyways... I have been totally creeping on other peoples blogs and I have decided it's fun to read random facts about someone you didn't know. So maybe I'll go ahead and make that my second blog! That's right... I'm already tempting to make another blog! Oh man... I'm on a roll! hahaha

Alrighty...

So here are some random things about me you might not already know!

I hope you are excited! hahaha

Oh and no these are totally not in order... just jottin them down as I think of them!

1. I'm totally ADD! Ok so if you know me that might not really be a random fact... I guess that one is really obvious. Oh well!

2. I LOVE to dance! I'm so nerdy though... I don't just listen to music like normal people, I usually have to come up with some on the spot dance routine to it... even if it's in my head! hahaha, well with the dance songs at least. I also find myself lip syncing to songs in the mirror with a brush or whatever is available. I'm so cool I know!

3. Music reflects my moods. Honestly it does! You can always tell Nadia's mood by the type of music I have playing. I usually have music going on around me through out my day. It's kinda like my own back ground theme music to my life! hahaha

4. My fave number is 18. I can still remember the day that I decided it was too. I was in grade 4 and I had the HUGEST crush on a boy named Danny and his joursey number for hockey was 18.... and it just kinda stuck through out the years!

5. I hate the feeling of makeup foundation on my hands... sick!

6. I love blue candies... blue raspberry candies to be exact! Blue ring pops have got to be the most delicious candies EVER!

7. Im allergic to red dye. That is right... red dye! Lame, I know! But the weirdest part is the reaction I get when I eat enough of it... it punches me drunk! So red kool-aid... is pretty much vodka to me!

8. I am obsessed with pictures! I love taking them, I love being in them and I love looking at them! I feel like they are journals of life. I love how when I am looking at them I can recall awesome, silly, awkward, strange, random and hilarious stories or moments!

9. Watermelon makes my tummy feel weird. That's random right?!

10. I have a blue dotted scar above my left eye from poking myself in the eye with a pencil. You see... I was 3 and my new nephew Kerry was being born in Golden and I was excited to make him a present! So I decided to make him a pair of pants out of paper... well in the process I landed on a pencil. So I guess you could say my scar is turning 21 in may!

11. I love meerkats. I want one!

12. I love high school musical! I can admit it! hahaha I love musicals! I wish my life could be a musical!... I'm not joking...

13. I'm scared of the dark

14. I am really good at "kick the can"!

15. my nick name is Nads... and I am pretty sure I have heard every joke that could go with it. hahaha

16. I use to be a skater... as in a skateboarder. I secretly always wanted to open my own skate store and have my own skate clothing line... that would be AWESOME!

17. Im such a perfectionist! It's sooooo annoying. If I can't master something on my first try it ticks me off and I usually give it up and never try it again.

18. I love keeping my nails short and painted dark colours. Not cause I'm a goth but cause I think it looks so classy! But chipped nail polish is a pet peeve.

19. My fave band of all time is Our Lady Peace.

20. I love to organize files and papers... I actually love doing it! That's something nerdy about me.

21. I have a hard time killing insects. Don't get me wrong... I hate most of them... but I always feel bad for their little families and stuff. I know pathetic right?!

22. I love flat cold root beer. The fizz hurts my belly.

Ok this list is just getting really long!... I'm sure I could think of more... but ya... I think I'm done for now.

I'm wondering how long this thing will be when I publish it. Oh well!

I guess I should go to bed... I have a house to pack in the morning and a baby to play with!

Alrighty... until next time!!! hahaha

Look at me go!

So this me blogging! Woohoo!

I figured it is about time that I jumped on the "blogger train", so bare with me... I'm just learning all the tricks and trade.

Wow... now I don't really know what to say...

I guess I can start with where we are at in life right now. Ummmm. Well right now we are actually in the midst of moving... lame lame lame! Every year from May to Sept we move to Dallas Texas where Jarom works as a sales manager for Proz Pest control. It's a pretty awesome job. Jarom is really good at sales and it allows me to stay at home all year round with Vienna while Jarom is in school here in Lethbridge for Business and Marketing.

Don't get me wrong, I love Dallas a lot... I just hate not really having roots down any where. I constantly feel like I am always up and moving. It really wears on our little family. It feels like we are always going some where doing something! If we aren't in Dallas we are running back and forth seeing family on weekends and what not. As much as we love them... it would be nice to be able to sit still and breath. But I guess that is life right?!

Talking about family, we have a daughter named Vienna. She was born June 28th 2009, also known as the best day of my life!!! I can't believe my little girl is almost 10 months old. I never really realized how fast time goes by. I know growing up my mom would always say... "I remember when you were this big!"... and now I get what she means! Vienna is growing up so fast! I couldn't love her more though... she is the best thing we ever did! She is sooooo happy and so smart. It's fun to watch her figure out things and push herself to do whatever she can. She makes me laugh! It's also so fun to see her lil personality grow. She is so confident and personable. She always has the biggest smile on her face and I love it! I also love our afternoons together dancing around the living room to music. It makes me so happy to know she loves music as much as I do. As of tonight her new fave song has to be "back to the 80's" by aqua. I guess they have a new cd out. Anyways... we played the song off of youtube and she got sooo excited about it! She started rocking back and forth head banging and clapping! I was laughing so hard I was crying! It really was just that funny!

Ummm aside from our crazy moving schedule right now... it'll be really nice to take a break this weekend with Jarom to celebrate our 2nd wedding anni. Wow... two years! I seriously do not know where the time went! So much has happened in those two years, it just amazes me! It's funny how even after two years we still are learning so much about one another. hahahaha.

All in all I would have to say married life is AWESOME! I do not miss the singles scene one bit! It is so awesome being able to go to bed every night with my best friend and have him be the first thing I see when I wake up. He always makes me laugh... even when I'm trying so hard to stay mad. I love that about him. I also love that I can lean on him and trust him with everything going on in my life. It's funny to me how I fell in love with a basketball player. For anyone who knows me... I am not what you would call a basketball fan. I never realized how big of deal that was until I moved to Lethbridge. hahaha.

Well... I hope this wasn't tooo boring for people to read. I promise I'll put up cooler posts and pictures when I am not busy with moving. :)

Take care!